me myself

2007-02-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

BLOG MOVED!!
DUE TO SOME PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE BEEN HAVING..
SORRY!!

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THANK YOU!!
AND ENJOY THE NEW BLOG!!
=)

2007-02-21T00:26:00.000-08:00

WELCOME BACK TO SCHOOL!!
stomach cramps!! argh!! ouch!! it hurts.. and haha.. felt better now after a rest on my bed.. haha.. and haha again.. 19/30 for maths common test.. kuang, kuang, kuang.. to bad no ‘A’.. haha.. daily readers! you should know why.. cause i wrote in my previous post.. too bad for mr tan.. want it back.. no way.. haha.. not with me anymore.. well, today wasn’t likely my day.. i went to school as usual, and had stomach cramps.. and argh.. 3 period of English and then DoT.. with a total of 5 period, with an empty stomach.. gosh it hurts.. but one thing about Wednesday is that there isn’t much lesson, there is only English, DoT, music, maths and science.. haha.. cool, not much lesson compared to others.. and oh gosh.. went to school and it reminded me about home economics common test tomorrow.. and i will definitely be dead meat.. sure fail.. haha.. and also while going through all my file, i saw a paper.. and it was my IH assignment.. argh! gosh! stress up totally.. another dead meat.. gosh i screwed everything up.. oh well, i better start..
- Home economics common test
- IH assignments
- CME project
argh! STRESS!
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2007-02-19T20:45:00.000-08:00

i cant take you off my mind
why is it so
no matter what i do
no matter where i am
no matter when it is
you are also in my mind
all i can do was think of you
you have change my life
with you, i am just so happy
but without you, i just do not know myself
now that i will not get you back
i guess that lead me to no where
you just make me realize that no one could replace you
i guees it is really a good bye

2007-02-19T20:38:00.000-08:00

man holiday is killing me.. so bored at home.. all i did was argue with my brother.. watch tv.. use the computer and sleep.. haha.. today, my mother cook prata.. finally.. hehe.. it's been a long time she cook prata.. i like.. =) oh well, i'm totally bored at home.. i've been eating much lately.. haha.. gaining weight i guess.. just kiding.. i can hardly gain weight.. even though i eat so much.. =).. oh well, i'm bored.. not going out.. cause my parents not working so i cant go out cause if i go out.. my parents will nag.. cause they actually plan to go malaysia but i told them i have assignments to do so, if i go out they will be like.. well, you guys know.. haha.. alright.. so i've been at home on the computer 24 hr.. haha.. sometimes the computer is on but no one is using it.. haha.. i'll be watching tv, having a nap and stuff.. haha.. and my computer is laggy.. due to my bro.. who kept playing maple in the other computer so internet so slow and i have hard time doing my CME project.. and i hate doing it.. seriously i don't know how to do.. so, i'm going to do it anyhow.. haha.. i bet some people have not start it at all.. maybe not even touch it or think about it.. now what.. haha.. i'm totally bored.. oh well, gtg.. going to find something to entertain myself.. =) i'm going to eat.. my mother cooking prata again.. hehe..
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2007-02-16T16:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! today performance was terrible, it was messy. the messiest. actually it was still a good job. as we only practice it for two day. 6 hrs? somewhere there. as we recall our steps, we did not really have any problem but when it comes for us to perform, all the counting was mess up. some were to slow and some were to fast. when this happen people intend to look at others. we were fine at the first few but were mess up then. but still we gave it out. we put on the best performance we can, we try our best and work it out no matter what. even though we were pressurized we still do our best. the seven of us, hazirah, natasha, yasmin, namirah, atiqah, matessha and myself. good job guys. and thanks for the help of steps. =) to matessha, hope you are fine now. don’t feel sad and stress up. okay? keep up the fighting spirit. =) for me a ‘beginner’ =) i think i did try my best to put up the best i can. i am thankful with the encouragement given. thanks teachers and friends! i hope this will not really happen during SYF. =) oh well, i’m off. HAVE A PLEASANT HOLIDAY!
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2007-02-15T22:02:00.000-08:00

hmmm. michele wong was so quite today. but after recess aiyo. so noisy. she and nurul. laugh laugh laugh. aiyo. they have gone crazy. take wrong food arh? haha. natasha was kind of a ittle bit bossy today. wel, not just today but since they day we found ot that we have to dance for chinese new year. aiyo. shout shout and shout. hiez. speechless me. seriously, she was never like this. amd oday she had to pack up the make-up and stuff, then aiyo. do not know la. she is like so bossy now a days. hiez. MAD day! had malay dance. abang adam so fierce. aiyo. do not know how to say la. i feel so sad. get scolding just cause did not get the step. aiyo. how to have a good performance if only learn for like about 5 hours only. hiez. brain bursting. had maths common test. aiyo. need get ‘A’ for it. but i wont make it. first question is already wrong la. SEE! i no cofident cause of mr tan. i blame him about anything relevant to maths. cause seriously i hardly fail maths last year la. actually not even once. eversince he is my maths teacher. i getting to hate maths. SEE! all because of him. it is always because of him! stupid! man seriously i do not know what is going to happen to me in future. i am going to fail everything. my dream, my school, my everything man. hiez. speechless me.
buh-bye la. need recall step again. tomorrow is the performance. aiyo-yo.
STRESS!!
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2007-02-14T20:49:00.000-08:00

valentine’s day. nothing great happen. receive sweets, chocolate and a rose. it was just like normal. but a little bit sick. of who? mr tan! who else. he always make me sick. For once a maths class can never be a real maths class. where he come in and straight away teach. everyday a story. today, he talks about restaurant. how sick? for 45 mins. and the next 15 mins on the same topic. SICKO! do not know how to teach! you do not really have to teach la. cause if you teach also people will not listen nor understand. so there is no use. therefore, go and find other job. my mother is definitely going to complain. haha. good. hope you get lost. (makan gaji bute aje) haha. well, had to stay back for malay dance due to chinese new year concert. PHEW! luckily not so hard. but man, i am stress! my brain can burst. i still have to do dikir barat. which is also for chinese new year concert. aiyo. really can burst. KKKAAABBBOOO!! haha. aiyo. STRESS! oh well, got to recall my steps.
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2007-02-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

why do friends come and go? why? every time they find someone new, they forget about the old one. what is the point of having friends then? they are good infront of you but bad in the other side. laugh out loud every day. have fun. share stories. share secrets. but in the end ther betray you. this always happen. they come to have fun and left just like that. who are my friends? friends that come and never go for no reason. well, they do not really exist in my world. they were never there for me. they talk to me. but never all day. no one knows why friends come and go. all they do was think of themselves. looking at someone by the look is just a waste of time. just like people say, do not judge a book by the cover. I always knew something was missing in my world. it always get WORST!
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2007-02-12T17:32:00.000-08:00

well, michele wong just reminded me of something bad happen a few days ago to my beloved ones.. I kind of slap juliet.. I’M SORRY JULLIET!! I guess I had a bad mood that day.. well, I had bad mood today.. who ever I have affect today.. I’m just sorry.. I’m just not in the mood now a days.. really.. I have no mood to be going to school now a days either.. I have no more mood to be doing anything now a days.. nothing at all.. valentines coming I don’t even care at all.. seriously nothing in mind at all.. no idea why I have been in a bad mood now a days.. seriously, I don’t even know anything about myself now.. after pouring into tears at home most of the time.. I just don’t know what I am doing with my life.. just wish my life could just end now.. I donno.. well, the point of me writing this is just to say SORRY TO JULIET!! HOPE YOU FORGIVE ME!! love ya lots.. no mood for wnything else..
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2007-02-11T22:40:00.000-08:00

Haha.. nothing happen yesterday.. well, today.. went to johor.. bought lots of stuff.. then go for hockey.. play against acjc.. won 2-0.. yeah.. played for last 10 mins I think.. haha.. leg pain.. ankle pain since weeks ago.. aiyo.. then that’s all.. life is so boring now..
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2007-02-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

WOW! ms ng mark the science paper so fast.. yeah.. got 27/40.. as I thought.. haha.. yeah.. malay journal was confiscated by mr tan.. stupid.. he talk about car then confiscate my book.. stupid.. make people hate maths now.. talk about unrelavent stuff during maths lesson.. lecture me.. haha and I cried.. scared if never get the journal back.. if not arh I dead meat.. haha.. lecture me.. told him I have no enough time.. then say he sleep for 3 hours only.. like I care like that.. use handbook to hide what I’m doing?? haha.. paiseh.. I was like looking through my schedule to get idea on what to write then talk rubbish.. ridiculous.. MUMMY!! I really need a maths tuition.. cause maths teacher donno how to teach.. man I really hope he get fired.. this year teachers just make me hate to go to school.. why cause no point of coming to school when all the while talking about unrelavent stuff.. in English cause mrs lo (?) kept talking about attitude, teaching the same thing over and over again, lecture and lecture.. “YAWN” aiyo.. maths mr tan always talk about other stuff somemore donno how to teach.. ask explain also no use.. people still don’t understand.. then ask explain again use the same method.. try use some other method la.. so people can understand.. no use rite.. rather ask mr goh teach.. man why he transfer? Aiyo.. now I hate maths.. stupid.. now have to get ‘A’ for the maths test.. stupid.. tell me how to get ‘A’ when I don’t even know what you teaching.. man I think my brother maths much more better arh.. can die eh ask mr tan teach.. waste money for school only.. aiyo.. so ridiculous la.. don’t want to talk about it already la.. it is just so ridiculous to quarrel over it here.. no use.. hiaz.. sleepy already..
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2007-02-08T21:10:00.000-08:00

YYIIKKEESS!!
had science common test on atoms and molecules.. haha.. quite easy.. hope I pass.. I think I’m getting 28/40.. haha.. still pass.. yeah.. that’s all..
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2007-02-07T22:35:00.000-08:00

YYYYIIIIPPPPIIIIEEEE!!!!
went to BUGIS !! with michele wong.. went in and out the same shop.. so weird.. haha.. no idea which things to buy.. had hard time choosing.. haha.. then went to centre point.. wishing to get a sweet that yasmin and friends bought.. but went there find cannot.. donno which shop.. so turn one whole round the centre point.. every level.. still cant find.. sms matessha to ask.. but she reply late.. we on the way home already.. btw, thanks matessha for helping.. :) well, cant find the sweet so bought famous amos (?) instead.. yummy! Leg so pain.. haha.. went back until so tired.. haha.. yeah! I hope to go out with her again.. fun and funny .. haha.. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! Having science common test tomorrow.. hope I do well.. yeah.. haha..
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2007-02-05T04:48:00.000-08:00

sorry..sorry..sorry
for not updating..hehe
lets begin..

3rd Feb >>>>>>>>>>>
okay.. i had hockey at 5pm but need assemble at 4pm.. reached there are about 3.30pm.. oh my gosh.. damn early.. damn lots of people.. some more my first day there amoung all match.. haha.. lost man.. lucky my parents was there.. haha.. oh well, before go there went to buy new turf shoe.. haha.. did not manage to buy same as Rez's (god sis) case don't have.. kuang kuang kuang.. haha.. sorry.. btw, we draw the game with 1-1.. hehe.. nice fight though.. =)

4th Feb >>>>>>>>>>>
i had this malay dance thingy at UCC.. its a practice for SYF actually.. it was at 4+pm.. my parents was eagerly to send me for no reason.. and oh my gosh my dad is so so sick.. it was like only 3.15pm.. not yet 3.30pm.. and he was like screaming his lungs out outside the house there.. how sick.. he late can, i "late" cannot.. stupid.. i wasn't even late arh.. crazy.. then at 8+pm they have to fetch me.. and they was like scolding again.. why cause i very slow.. go to hell arh its the bus who is slow what.. not me.. stupid.. then they blah blah blah cmplain that all because of me they cannot watch football fully.. fine arh football more important what.. next time dont want fetch dont fetch.. can go home myself larh.. it is just so sick to hear you guys nag.. cause once it start it will never stop within 1 day or worst a week.. argh..

5th Feb >>>>>>>>>>>
alrite.. today i had a better day.. maybe not during school time.. haha.. today P.E was so damn funny.. madihah is so belo.. haha.. we have to do this american dance thingy and we were making fun of ourselves.. haha.. can't explain here la.. haha.. cause explain here not so funny.. must show in real life then you all can get the joke.. haha.. after P.E had this spotcheck.. so sick.. it takes up our recess time.. oh well, after school went mcdonald with madihah.. i treat here for accompan-ing me.. haha.. then geraldine, kelsie and delphine came.. kelsie was like so hardworking out of the sudden.. haha.. but she very funny.. dont even know what is atoms.. haha.. oh well, kelsie you better study arh.. the test coming soon.. hehe..

oh well, i guess thats all larh..

but before i go i want say sorry to me "beloved" MICHELE WONG.. for not being your P.E partner.. =) smile always.. okay? and remember.. aku tak benci kau.. haha

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2007-01-30T04:33:00.000-08:00

hey all .. i got contact lenses .. muahahaha .. so happy ??
i little .. but kind of afraid .. hehe .. oh well, actually i gues thats all i want to tell all of you ..
muahahahaha .. hehe .. i'm crazy, insane i know .. hehe..
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2007-01-29T03:39:00.000-08:00

haha .. today in the Mr. Lim HAHA class (P.E) we play captain ball .. i think this is the best P.E lesson i ever had in St. Marg's .. haha .. cause it is like the first time my team and the oppenent team is really participating in the game .. and we won .. hehe .. it was fun .. but the teacher is not .. could you imagine he want to give demerite point to this girl in this class just because the sock is too low .. but actually it is not and last year he give warning point just because someone did not bring the D&T apron .. how srupid? man if he want to give warning point over and over again, my as well he just give the person a demerite point straight away rite ..

oh well, just went out with my dad to buy the printer ink .. oh man .. i need printer ink cause the old one is out of ink and we do not have extra so i ask him to buy for me cause he got a car.. then he ask me to follow .. man just to buy a printer ink also want people to follow.. so ya, i had no choice but to follow cause if i don't follow, he wont buy and if he don't buy i will be dead meat tomorrow .. hahahahaha .. on the way back, when i enter the car i saw this orange weird spider hanging by the door .. oh gosh .. so shocking so kind of slap it out .. hahahaha .. so poor thing ..

oh well, i guess thats all for today .. =)
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2007-01-27T22:09:00.000-08:00

to all blog readers..
what do think about someone who was once your friend but now he/she is not and he/she backstab you for the rest of the time he/she hangs out with others?
do you have this type of problems?
well, i do..
and now i just have to find a new friend to trust too..
but it is too hard..
cause trusting someone is just like learning something new..
he/she was a close friend to me last year..
but now, he/she just hangs out with others and he/she just change..
but did he/she notice it?
i don't think so..
all he/she does was just have fun with him/her new group of friends..
he/she don't even know i exist now..
i guess he/she don't even care anymore..
he/she saw me but just walk away not saying hi or anything..
when he/she used too..
he/she just change and i don't know if i should tell him/her or not..
when he/she can't find his/her friend he/she comes and ask me for help..
but once found, he/she left with them and not saying anything to me..
people just don't talk to me just because i hangs out with chinese people more then malay people?
is it true?
i think it is..
cause ever since i hangs out with my chinese friends, my old friends just don't talk to me..
this is just so ridiculous..
lets end this with 2 question,
is it me who is changing or him/her?
is it my fault or his/her?

2007-01-26T22:03:00.000-08:00

hhhmmm.. kind of hae a bad day today..
due to someone.. who thinks she is so great..
well, i owe you blog readers an apology..
for not updating for so long..
=)
oh well.. nothing really happen for the past few days..
except.. for some stupid "friends"..
and also some assignments and report to be completed..
for home econ today, i did a practical..
and cook a "pie"..
hehe.. it was nice though..
but i find the potato kind of not cook enough..
oh well, better luck next time..
=)
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2007-01-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

EVERYONE OUT THERE PLEASE BE REMINDED THAT I HAVE CHANGE MY EMAIL ADDRESS:

lsitihajarl@hotmail.com l (smaller version of L)

so, add me now .. and i'll chatch with all of you out there ..
smile always =)

2007-01-03T20:30:00.000-08:00

sorry for not updating lately due to my laptop
it is totally dead so now i will be getting a "new" laptop which supposingly belong to my father but now he have bought a new one so i'm getting his

first day of school
a little bit blurr though
but i do have lots of fun
and the sec1's are all so tiny =)
tiny but after weeks they are so the attitude problem people
they cut queue, role eyes and even not listening to prefects
they are so ...........tut..................
=)
i donno
well, i came with my new crumpler bag which i finally get
=)
so happy to be getting want i want
i guess thats all i can talk about today
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2006-12-25T17:30:00.000-08:00

haha
back from malaysia
i'm glad it was fun
well cause cousins are there
=)
the kittens there are so cute
than flood, no water then go all the way to melaka
fun though go here and there
=)
hope if go there again my cousins will come along
yeah
thats all
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2006-12-21T05:04:00.000-08:00

"YYYEEEAAAHHH"
am i really really excited about tomorrow ??
am i really really wanting to go tomorrow ??
well ... !!NO!!
because its not what i have in mind
going malaysia, was it gonna be a holiday
no i dont think so because everytime we go malaysia all we did was sit down there doing nothing except for listening to the adults mumbling .. hiex
why is it mumbling .. because from the living room, we can hear them talking while we sit there, sweating .. how sick ??
well, my fav. couz coming along .. but yet
am i really gonna have fun tomorrow and the following 2-3 days ??
i hope ya .. cause if not its just a waste of my time following .. because seriously i dont wanna go .. its just me having no other choices .. really sick ..
and seriously i really want it to be fun .. so damn fun that this malaysia "outing" will be the best outing of the year ..
so ya, i guess i wont be updating for days ..

SHARKS!!
my laptop is spoil .. now .. my mp3 ..
eeeerrrr .. everytime my oldest bro touch my things, it spoil
how worst can my entertainment stuff be ?? its not fair at all .. eeeerrrrr
i really hope both this stuff will be okay soon .. very soon ..

2006-12-15T20:15:00.000-08:00

YYYIIIIAAAACCCCKKKSSSS!!!!

plan was cancelled ..

we didnt go to malaysia today ..

cause my dad car was sent to the car service .. and the car servicer so the stupid that he/she make the back of the car get an accident ..

AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGHH!!!!

so angry .. if not i would have gone out today .. so sick .. now have to stay at home .. so bored..

well, although we didnt manage to go to malaysia we still have plans ..

we going to watch ERAGON at VIVO CITY tomorrow ..

and in the morning we going to SENTOSA, UNDER WATER WORLD ..

yeah .. just receive a call from my mom .. and we get tickets at 8+pm for the movie tomorrow ..

she said that we going sentosa in the morning at about 10 am ..

wow .. going to have a great day tomorrow .. and i cant wait for it ..

especially cause we going with my favourite couzin and just my parents and my 4th bro ..

luckily not all going .. YEAH !!!

can't wait for it .. i'm DYING to go tomorrow ..
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2006-12-10T18:27:00.000-08:00

WWWWOOOOSSSSHHHH !!!!!
went shopping again ..
haha .. this time i bought a jeans .. 3 jeans .. 1 black 2 blue ..
actually wanted to buy 2 only but if take $70 purchase get a free bag which cost $40+ ..
=)
oh ya before that, went to buy my bro books ..
then went john little and bought abother pair of shoe .. haha ..
coincidently looking for jeans but get a shoe .. haha ..
theres 2 colour so nice .. both nice .. cant decide which to take .. thought of getting both but too bad .. i cant so i took the black one .. haha ..
!! TOTALLY SHOP MANIAC !!
haha ..
lucky me .. =)
yeah .. my best wkend shopping ever ..

2006-12-09T22:45:00.000-08:00

WWWOOOOSSSHHHH!!!!!!
i went shopping ..
went to causeway point, metro ..
my mom bought this plates which she is dying to get ..
my dad bought a shoe .. he finally change his design of shoe .. haha ..
i bought a shoe and 2 blouse .. actually was looking for jeans but no sight of it ..
so ya .. too bad .. a coincidently i bought something else .. haha ..
then went to courts .. my dad bought a shaver .. haha ..
my mom bought a new phone cause the old one was a little bit crazy ..
!! SHOP MANIAC !!
haha .. then we went to PIZZA HUT ..
=)
i ordered LASAGNIA(spelling ??) .. haha .. and a garlic bread ..
my mom and dad bought this christmas set meal ..
i ate the most i can say ..
haha .. drank like 3 cups of pepsi .. lol ..
!! FOOD MANIAC !!
bought big mac and mcspicy meal .. UPSIZE .. for my bros ..
haha .. serve you guys rite who ask you guys not to follow .. haha ..
yeah !! the best shopping this year !!

2006-12-06T01:45:00.000-08:00

i cant make up my mind
am i really wanting you
am i really needing you
am i really missing you
am i really loving you
theres so much question to ask
theres so much answer to get
aaaarrrrgggghhhh
!!!!
i really wish all this could stop
stop and start back from the start
dear god please help me
why am i the one who have to face this
please
please show me the correct path
i really need it
i just want to be by his side
i can't bear thinking of him all this while
wehn
i am not his
I LOVE HIM
thats the only thing i could say for the rest of my life
i'm still waiting

2006-12-05T21:25:00.000-08:00

as each day goes by

the more i think of you

and the more i miss you

i want you to take me back

please

please take me back

because

all i can think of was you

i cant take you off my mind

neither do my heart

please

take me back

take me back for the rest of your life

as each day i cry for you

ii just wish those tears could take me back to you

please

TAKE ME BACK

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-04T21:20:00.000-08:00

i really miss him
for once when i leave him, i thought i could forget him
but for thousand hours, i realise i cant forget him
?? what else can i do now ??
we never talk since then
we never met since then
?? how worst can it be ??
for once i thought our relationship will last forever
but now, i am going to give up for him
all he did was enter my heart and the next day, he leave
now, he leave, all i want was him
but still he dont care
for once i just want him to care for me
because
he hurt my heart
he left my heart
he even made my heart face so much pain
now all he have to do is just pay me back with care
please share me your love
thats all i want
please please please
all i want was him back
but forget it
i dont care anymore
if he want to love me back do search for me
but if not
just dont talk to me
because i have given him so much time and chances
but he have taken it for granted
and
i have waited for him long enough
i just want him to know
that
I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANY WORDS CAN SAY
I WILL MISS HIM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
I WILL FACE WHATEVER PROBLEMS JUST TO LOVE HIM
OR
I WILL FACE WHATEVER PROBLEMS JUST TO FORGET HIM
i dont care no longer eventhough it takes me to hurt myself or do stupid stuff
whatever it is
at the end of my life
i want to make sure that i either love him or forget him
i will suffer as much as i want just for him
that i am sure

2006-11-29T20:44:00.000-08:00

aaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!
my laptop is spoil..
my older brother was like playing gunbound when out ofa sudden it went black..
now when i on..
everything was moving..
but, the screne was black..
aaarrggghhh!!!
now want to use cannot..
but luckily my 3rd brother allow me to use his computer..
his so kind..
hehe..
like real..
haha..lol..
i felt so so so so damn bored without my laptop..
i can't do anything except watching tv..
so boring..
well, my dad gonna send to the shop..
maybe today for a repair..
=)
well, really really wish it will be good after repairing..
=)
yeah !!
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2006-11-29T20:33:00.000-08:00

after hockey i went to watch HAPPY FEET with Afiqah..
hehe.. the show was so funny..
Rezwana was missing for training today..
this time i know why..
but do you really have to not reply Nic's and my smses ??
neither do the calls ??
we were really worried you know..
well, now that you were missing for the trainings i guess we wont be able to hang out nor see each other..
haha..
unless we were to have plans..
hehe..
i really miss ya..
once me and nic see you..
we are going to BASH you up..
thats our plan for you for missing trainings..
=)
really hope to see you..
we were so damn worried ok..
see ya..
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2006-11-27T07:28:00.001-08:00

finally..
done with the musical retest..
done with juliet's blog..
hehe..
JULIET: if anything just tell me .. ok? if want change it or don't really like it or whatever it it, just tell me .. ok? i'll be glad to help .. =) cya ard ..
i really hope we pass it this time..
well, i had a bad stomach pain today..
until now..
aaawww..
so painful..
i hope it will be fine soon..
=)
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2006-11-26T09:24:00.000-08:00

the PAIN and HATE
the CONFUSION and DESPAIR
really too much then I could ever take
and when I AM GONE will you CARE?
because
everytime I see you
it is like a fresh breeze on my face
so, would you CARE if I AM GONE?
would you MISS ME if I AM GONE?
would you LOVE ME FOREVER?
i need to know
because
i can never get you off my mind
it scares me though
ALL I WANT WAS YOU
ONLY YOU
I DO NOT CARE NO LONGER

EVEN IF
IT TAKES ME THOUSAND OF YEARS WAITING
JUST FOR YOU
AS LONG AS IT IS FOR YOU

2006-11-24T22:49:00.000-08:00

aaaarrrggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so bored today..
my 4th brother playing maple all day long..
my 3rd brother go out..
my 2nd brother bullying me..putting wax on my hair..take my hp..haha..now his out..
good !!
all i do now is watching tv and doing something bored..
haha..
wondering what to do now..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2006-11-22T23:07:00.000-08:00

..i met someone who is someone ex..

..haha..

..so bored..

2006-11-22T23:00:00.000-08:00

aaarrrggghh..
so tired..
had a rough and tough U14 hockey training..
its so hot..
and my whole body is so restless and arching..
so so painfull..
all i want to do now is just sleep..
hehe..
rezwana was missing in action today..
hehe..
she did not come for training for some reason..
i guess she have to follow her parents and brother take his PSLE results..
well i guess he did well..
hehe..
i went back with su and syaf..
ate at long john silver and met some of their friends..
hehe..
met rina too..
haha..
her shoe the bottom came off..
haha..
very funny..
met some more people from xishan primary..
=)
good results..
congratz..
=)
haha..
nothing much to say and do..
just too tired to do things..
all in my mind now is to sleep and sleep..
hehe..
i hope my arching will get better soon..
-tata-

2006-11-15T22:39:00.000-08:00

.. to someone i love ..

as each day past, i kept thinking about you. the only thing i have been asking myself is that why can't i forget about you. but, at times when i think deeper about you, i can't do anything but cry for some reasons. but, sometimes having fun with someone else even make me feel that it was you. every move i made, seems to be about you. but do you care? NO! all you know is to have fun with others. when i, in a corner of no where, finding the right move, the right time. all it takes is for you to say that you care. i know i've made everything worse as each day i talk to other boys. but, it doesn't mean i don't love you. my heart only open for one. but it seems like you enter it once and left without saying a word. others even enter without my permission and never leave. but, no matter who enter and who leave, you don't seem to care. i know this is past. but all it takes was to allow me to enter your heart and show me that you care about everythinng i do. but as day past you seem to be having your own life and watching me suffer. was that what you want? if that is what you want. then you've seen it. now all i want is us the start off something NEW! back to the BEGINNING! and not repeat the same mistakes. if you don't want that to happen, then all i have to do is to open my heart to someone else who have waited for me this far. if this really happen, i shall do what you've done to me. i'll leave you without saying anything. when everything is just right infront of us.

all i can say now is that

I LOVE YOU

I MISS YOU

2006-11-12T05:44:00.000-08:00

another day of..
yyyiiipppeee-ness..
haha..
got a labtop..
well, actually my dad's..
i'm too happy..
he do not use it anymore..
so, i ask him if i can use it or not..
he was quiet..
suddenly, my mom came in my room told me that my dad called..
and quess what..
he was doing something to the labtop..
haha..
i finally get what i wanted..
=)
been getting stuff i really want since yesterday..
what a days for me..
=)
i'm so so so happy..
now get my own privacy..
my brother can no longer touch my stuff..
=)
no more lagging of com..
yeah!!
gtg now
-tata-

2006-11-11T05:41:00.000-08:00

yyyiiiippppeee...
get my mp3..
ZEN V PLUS..
2gb..
pink colour..
haha..
i'm so pinkish..
i'me so happy..
finally get what i've been wanting to get..
=)
no command again..
too happy..
-tata-

2006-11-09T05:37:00.000-08:00

hey..
i had a nice fun at Bishan..
with Atiqah again..
watch Material Girls then Step Up..
felt sad for Namirah..
she were unable to come..
her father in the hospital..
i hope he get well soon..
Namirah really want to watch Step Up with us..
but it's so sad..
sorry Namirah..
we'll try to watch again with you this time..
the movie was very nice..
i'll buy the disc once it come out for sale..
can't wait for that..
=)
well, no command on the movie anymore..
too much, too fun and too nice..
haha..
you people out there better watch..
=)
gtg now..
-tata-

2006-11-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

haha..
me and atiqah went to watch Flushed Away..
since we kind of have nothing better to do..
and also was kind of in a boring situation at home..
haha..
atiqah went all the way to yishun from school since we were from there..
how poor thing..
haha..
btw, it was so funny..
there is a group of ite people who watch too..
they laugh so loud and some of them even burp..
eeeeeeeee..
the show was funny indeed..
i like most is the part where slugs appear..
they were like so called the background singer..
haha..
now than i gtg..
-tata-

2006-10-29T17:31:00.000-08:00

today is hari raya open house at my house..
hehe..
pack with family and 'friends'..
and kids..
it's actually not so pack it's just the kids who make lots of noise make the house feel pack..
hehe..
got to help this help that..
aiyo..
so troublesome..
haiiii..
nothing more..
-tata-

2006-10-27T17:28:00.000-07:00

arh..
got to go back to school for english remedial and musical meeting..
going to retake musical since we did not go through it..
haha..
doing on spilled water..
part of it..
very pack..
hehe..
nothing much happen today..
i just sleep, watch television, eat, play computer and sleep..
hehe..
boring..
-tata-

2006-10-26T17:19:00.000-07:00

ok..
last day of school..
was sad indeed..
people hug each other..
we get report book..
arh..
report book was ok..
mine was great..
no 'U' this time..
hehe..
people promoting to express..
namirah-natalie-delphine
there is one more..
not sure who..
anyway..
felt happy for them..
some get to be prefect..
namirah-natalie-delphine-geraldine-juliet
and don't know who else..
hehe..
all the best for their interview..
=)
get the cleanest classroom of sec 1..
get oreo and ferrero roche..
cool..
hehe..
get a marble from ms ho..
hehe..
we clean up the classroom..
we even mop the floor..
unbelievable..
hehe..
that's because someone spill detergent on the floor..
was it really detergent ?
well, i'm not sure about it..
what else ?
hmmp..
nothing else i guess..
was great..
gonna miss 1n7 lots..
-tata-

2006-10-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

another day of 'wowness'..
hehe..
got my IH paper, LAP paper and science paper..
pass my IH, pass my LAP..
but, fail my science..
got 44/80 for IH..
got 34/60 for LAP..
got 43/100 for science..
no command for all this..
hehe..
pass all subjects except science..
how sad..
well, my leg is so damn pain..
cause of yesterday malay dance practice..
have not stretch for so long..
so, had muscle pain..
arh..
haha..
well, away for now than..
-tata-

2006-10-19T05:33:00.000-07:00

oh wow oh wow !!

got my maths paper, english compre, english summary writing and malay paper wow..
and not yo forget D&T results..

for maths i get 73/100..
by 2 marks i will get an 'A1'..
which i've made a mistake..
3 marks wasted..
got the correct answer at first but go and change it..
argh..stupid me..
2 marks..
man..what a total waste..

than get english compre and summary writing..
which i scored 38/60 total of this both..
which is 20/40 for compre..
and 18/20 for summary writing..
isn't it wonderful to be getting 18/20 for summary writing..
but what a waste of marks..
how can i actually be missing 2 marks on language..
when i already had all 15 points for it..
all it takes was to copy it..
but kind of copy it blindly..
my fault i admit..
hehe..
even for compre..
how difficult can it be when all it takes was to get a word..
all it takes was to copy the word..
and what happen?
well, wrong spelling..
got the whole thing wrong just because of spelling mistake..
argh totally wasting all the give away marks..
shuts..

for malay..
no command..
only get 57/90..
which gives me a 'C'..
i have never gotten a 'C' for malay before..
gosh..
how much worst can it be..
nvm..

what past is past..
i can't turn back the clock and redo everything..
no..no
ouch it hurts..
hurts to be losing all this carelessness.. =(
but who cares..

say good bye to express stream..
sorry to my parents..

D&T oh well..
got 72.5%..
haha..
dont really care about this..

talk more about my results tomorrow than..
-tata-

2006-10-12T05:22:00.000-07:00

yeah!!!
exams over !!!
can enjoy ??
can play ??
can relax ??
haha..off course..
can do whatever i want to do..
but for tomorrow,
i have to help my mother do kuih for hari raya..
haha..
trying to find away to "escape"..
going to sleep all day long..
no i can't and i wont..
i want get my mp3..
ZEN V PLUS !!
by tomorrow cause collected $100 already..
yeah !!
hurray !!
cant wait..
hope she would say yes to buy it tomorrow..
well, had my maths paper 2 just now..
haha..
can do it..
yeah so simple..
ok ok..
so far i just do not want to see my IH and science results..
its so so ........
FRIGHTENING !!!!
argh !!
but i really really hope i will pass..
my only hope for now..
yeah !!
haha..
after the maths paper, we went for ice skating..
me, wei tian, natalie and adeline..
nice..
so far adeline fell the most..
followed by wei tian than natalie than me..
haha..
i fell once only..
too sad for you all..
hehe..
met some seniors there too..
=)
funny..
well, gtg now..
play games, listening to songs and chat with friends..
hehe..
-tata-

2006-10-11T05:48:00.000-07:00

oh gosh..
science paper made my brain burst off..
some stuff i dont know how to answer..
cause teacher did not go through..
argh..
shit..
gosh 2 hrs sitting on the chair, without stretching..
argh..
than got LAP ( lit ) paper which is 1 hr 30 mins..
lucky i can do it..
mostly i'm prepared to fail IH ( geo and his ) and science..
a tough paper..
too tough already..
haha..
tomorrow last paper which is maths paper 2..
will end school at 9.30 am..
then nat ( martha ), wei tian ( albert ), adeline ( ?? ) and me ( alice )..
we are going ice skating !!!!!!!
yeah..
to celebrate..
since its after exams..
haha..
yeah..
well, not much to talk today..
gtg now..
my 3rd brother painting the house..
my mother cleaning the kitchen with my maid..
my father praying at mosque..
my 4th brother is having tuition..
my 2nd brother working..
my 1st brother still at NS..
haha..
i'm left..
playing the computer all day long..
yeah..
ok..
-tata-

2006-10-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

argh..
had my math paper 1 which was ok..
than had IH paper which is so hard..
the map is so small..
i cant even different shape the mosque and the church and others..
argh..
bet i will fail..
are losing a lot..
tomorrow is science and LAP ( lit ) paper..
i am studying science later in which is after bloging..
hehe..
for LAP in which i have not finish any of the books and the poem i need to read through again later..
argh.. still alot of things to do..
shit lah!!
tomorrow going to be the worst day of my life..
today i had already sat a 2 hrs paper which is IH paper..
and my hand was so painful..
argh..
i'm going to be dead meat..
shit..
i'm scared to death..
argh!!
well, having nose block now..
hope to recover soon..
very soon..
hehe..
lastly, i going to get my mp3 very soon..
once i collect another $8, i will get it alright..
hehe..
so now, i've got to go study..
-tata-

2006-10-09T05:33:00.000-07:00

argh !!
tomorrow is my maths paper 1 and IH ( geo & his )
i hope it wont be hard..
and i will pass..
yeah..
hahax..
thats all i can say now..
-tata-

2006-10-06T05:35:00.000-07:00

argh..
my computer sux to the core..
it have been lagging since my brother go and download the maple patch stuff..
argh..
i wish i will get a computer or a labtop on my own..
whereby no one can used it..
whereby i can lock it..
hehe..
well, had my malay paper 1 and paper 2 today..
it was okay..
end school at 12.30..
head off back to yishun..
meet suriati (strawberry) at yishun mrt station..
than head off to chua chu kang, lot 1..
met my god sis (rez or dan) and her friends..
than saw nicolette (loner) at mcdonald waiting for food..
than had a comosion..
than got to go home..
hehe..
lots af than, than, than..
haha..
looking forward to meet my god sis again..
i hope this time get to use her labtop..
it seems to be so cool..
=)
haha..

gtg and do other stuf like helping my brother and mother preparing for HARI RAYA..
hehe..
still so early lerrx..
but who cares..
so,
-tata-

2006-10-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

you people can hate me as much as you want..
you people can lie to me as much as you want..
no matter how much you betray me and how much you backstab me..
i dont care..
coz i know there is still people other than you all who are better..
i dont know why this is happening..
but i dont care..
i dont care if you people do this..
i will just be myself..
i dont like to argue with you people or feeling jealous or anything..
i'll just keep quiet and leave all the problems in the corner of no where..
i have no time for all this..
maybe after exams..
(the people are secrets i wont tell the name)
well, i will get back to this sometimes..
tomorrow is my mt paper 1 and paper 2..
i really got to study it..
especially the letter writing which makes me a little confuse between informal and formal..
so, i better get up and head of to my room and study..

i'm really looking forward to be meeting my god sis tomorrow..
=) luv ya always..
so,
-tata-

2006-09-28T06:40:00.000-07:00

wow..
just end my english end of the year exam..
the first paper which is the compo and letter writing was normal..
i am just afraid about my tenses..
well, what ever it is it's past..
=)
the second paper which is the compre and summary was ok to me..
i hope i will pass it..
=)
haha..
after school matessha, nisa, atiqah and i went to causeway point and walk around..
it was ok..
we went to survey for mp3 and mp4..
hehe..
the price were acceptable with me..
and my parents will buy for me the ZEN V PLUS..
YEAH !!
which most probably i want..
cause it can be install with videos, songs, fm radio and some other fun stuff..
and it is small easy to carry around..
but, one thing is that it is small so when it lost we might not notice..
so, got to be carefull..
well, i kind of need to add some money as i want it fast..
so, i'll pay some and my parents will pay some..
but most probably, they will pay more..
as i only have this month which is the fasting month and also the hari raya..
to save money..
hope it is enough..
maybe more than enough..
since i get allowence..
=)
well, glad to use the computer today, while my brother use the other computer..
hehe..
it is actually i book it very early..
first come first serve..
=)
ok.. gtg..
_/TTT\_
\_@_@_/
-tata-

2006-09-27T03:27:00.000-07:00

hey..
i'm so happy..
hehe..
past my physic test..
arh..
not so happy..
my english end of the exam is tomorrow..
which is my paper 1 and paper 2..
i hope i will make it..
as in i will pass..
well, whatever it is i will promise myself that i will put in my fullest effort in it and try my very best..
now, i have been too busy with homeworks and revisions..
i am glad that all projects especially the musical project had end..
whoa..
and now that my first end of the year exam paper is tomorrow..
i am glad there are people supporting me and wishing me good luck..
thanks all..
i really appreciate it..
i promise i will try my very best..
yeah..
gotta help my mom prepare for the breaking of fast..
-tata-

2006-09-24T03:16:00.000-07:00

wow..
first day of fasting..
i success to take it by drinking only a galss of tea in the morning..
hehe..
i went to geylang serai with my parents..
than go to little india..
aiyo..
so hot and tiring..
but i still can stand it..
=)

ate alot seh..when breaking fast..
=)

well, heading off to do homework and revision now..
-tata-

2006-09-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

well, tomorrow is the first day of fasting..
i hope i will be able to fast fully for the whole month..
exam is approaching..
i have to work hard no matter what..
writing notes all day long..
i promise my mom i'll work hard..
so i'll try to keep her promise..
day by day, everything change..
i donno why..most of the time i have to study, study and study..
but, my brother..
most of the time he play, play and play..
its so unfair..
well, anyway if he fail not my problem..
and if i pass..
what else..
i'll get a mp3 or maybe an i-pod..
wweeeeee !!
can't wait..
=)

-tata-

2006-09-20T06:15:00.000-07:00

nothing much happen today again.....

just here wiching another HAPPY BIRTHDAY to..............................

MY......................

MOTHER !!!!!!!!!!!

yeah !!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

thats all... tata

2006-09-16T04:54:00.000-07:00

not much which happen today..

just here to drop by and wish my father a.................

...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

=)
tata..

2006-09-13T05:00:00.000-07:00

AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

people is nominating me to be a prefect..
no..
this can't happen..
haha..
well, who cares if that is their decision than it shall be..
i try my best to be a good prefect if i'm selected..
=)
well, i nominate madihah..
it is bacause she is enthu, funny, kind, helpful.. and sometimes playful..
=)
she's kind after all..

well, i just had my malay common test..
coming up is IH (geography and history)..
arh!!
i better work on it..
better not fail it again..
=) i will try my very best to pass it..

aarrgghh..
class arrangement of sit has change..
and i sit right at the infront..
infront of..
the TEACHER'S table..
haha.. but it's a good place to sit as to me i can concentrate more..
yeah..
what else..
well, i'm going to science centre tomorrow for the DNA thingy..
which i hope is fun and easy off course..
=)
well, gtg now..
got to study..
#. tata .#

2006-09-10T04:38:00.000-07:00

if only i could turn back the time..
and not make the same mistake..
why do parents always have to get involve in our life when we ourselves could arrange it ourselves..
well, maybe they have reason which we just dont understand..
the only thing i want in this life is to play hockey..
and in order to play hockey, i have to work hard..
i really hope i get in express which will not be possible..
i really hope i could change school which will and will not be possible as if i want to change school to a school with hockey, i could only change to crescent girls..
i cant even go to st. theresa..
i dont understand why my parents would only let me go to crescent and not others..
hhhheeeeiiii..
if only i get to make my own choices..
if only i can turn back the time..
well, it seem like i have no choice anymore..
the only think i can do now is to work hard and get into express..
which is impossible..
but i will still try no matter what..
now the only think i have to do is to wait for the national u14 hockey results..
which i hope i make it..
if not i just have to work harder and try my very best next time which i dont know when is the next time..
maybe it is just what god wants me to be..
and well, i really going to work hard and get to express and change school..
in this school, in this class, theres no way i could make it..
maybe in this school but not in this class..
the class is to noisy..
i can't concentrate in a environment like this..
maybe i can..
if, i put my head into it..
i'll try my very best..
i'll promise..
no matter what say, i will still do my best..
now that my results is so much better..
i better keep it up..
not going to let anyone look down on me..
no matter what happens..
i bet my parents will always be by myside supporting me..

well, i'll be ok after a while..
just need some help with some smart people..
the only thing that make me bad was the people i hang out with..
i'll be careful and listen to my parents..

tomorrow is my malay common test and i promise i do my best..

now, i'm off to study it..
~tata~

2006-08-31T05:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL TEACHER!!
especially ST. MARG'S and HUAMIN teachers..
hehe..

st. marg's teachers day celebration was quite bored..
wasn't that fun as we only sang song, do mass dance, watch people play pin-ball and party around..
thats all as we (sec1 girls) didn't manage to perform as it is raining..

than manage to go back to primary school..
hehe..
quite fun larh..
meeting all the peeps and teachers..
fun..
huamin dont seem like there is a big different..
but not bad improvement..

hehe..
i get 14/15 for my science file..
nice job huh?
hehe..
thanking natalie chueng for the help..
=)

gtg now..tata..

2006-08-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

wow!
so sleepy today..
teachers talk, weather hot..
as normal..
but one thing was different..
we stayed back after school for the musical theatre "rehersal"..haha..
not really rehersal cause Ms Tan just went through our blockings..
its so funny..
Ms Tan sprain her ankle..poor thing..
she barely walk..i hope she will get well soon..
well, since we were too tired, we didn't stay back to continue the props and so we went home..
haha..well, it was pretty the most tired day..everyone.. we're so sleepy..

what else happen i not sure..haha..

series continue the next post..>>>...

2006-08-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

aaaarrrggghhh!!!!!
SHIT lah you people!!!
what so difficult ??
why do i have to do everything ??
you people just making me sick..
is that the only thing you girls know what to do??
IS THAT THE ONLY THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
freak you know freak..
WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING A GROUP WHEN THE ONLY PERSON WHO DO THE THINGS WAS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT IS THE POINT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!
can't you understand me...it's sick you know...
feel it people..what if you girls do all the things all by yourself and others dont even contribute a single word..
if only you girls help out a little..
dont you know whats going on here ??
I DID THE FINAL STORY...
I DID THE SCRIPT...
I DID THE PROPS...
I DID EVERYTHING...
now the only think i need you to do was to add the script..
is that so difficult .....
you girls are just acting like a primary 1 kids...

i really have no feelings to be shouting at you girls, asking you girls to do things..
i really dont want to do it..
but sometimes.. i just feel like i should do it ...
and after i did it, i felt wrong..

can't you girls understand..

i know i'm not the leader but i have to do this..
if i don't, i dont think the script will appear anyway...

please girls work, work and work...
8 september is fast girls...very fast...

WORK PEOPLE WORK!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

hey..
today was:-
the most boring day
the most frustrated day
the most sleepy day
i had NEVER EVER went through..
it was bored coz my teachers talk and talk none stop..
they talk sometimes dont understand..
some talk so loud, some talk so fast, some talk so slow..aiyo..
all different different..
this make me sleepy..

so, i'm bored coz i'm sleepy..

now, i'm frustrated because my musical project exam left with a few weeks..
and we have not even started doing the props..
aiyo..
and they dont even do what was told..

aiyo..so so so so frustrated!!

now still bored..nothing to do..
want chat.. but don't know what to chat about..
hie..
strange me..

well, gtg..bb

2006-08-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

hey all..
very well..
glad to be writing back as per normal..
since my brother is "banned" from using computer because he kept playing game when he said he is doing homework..
haha..i'm glad that that happen..haha..
hate my brother..
now, i made the new website and new background..
oh well, sorry didn't update the previous blog..
now i'll be updating more here..
just for your information..

well, today was my malay common test..
i can say that it was easy..but, i'm afraid if i fail or get low marks..
it was a one hour paper and i finish it for just half an hour..
while having the paper, i slept for fifteen minutes..
when my teacher said "fifteen more minutes.do check your paper."
the voice was loud and i woke up and could'nt sleep again..
aaawww..
so sad..
haha..

maybe thats all for today..
#.tata.#